Month: December 2015

What a devastating  tragedy 

:: the greatest thing I knew turned into the most common thing i see.

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What a ride 

I finally got over the fear and hopped on the roller coaster of falling in love with you. What a pleasure to see this celestial state we we’re in every time I looked into your eyes. 
What a loop to loop of the electrifying flip flopping that occurs in the pit of my stomach to remind me every time how much I would love to preserve this. 

Your tender kindness keeps me bounded to my seat when I see what centripetal forces of life has. And through the differences that we have, we know it’s natural to experience friction as long as we are confident in knowing what we have will last. 

But inertia happens. I didn’t bother to put on a seat belt because your love made me feel secure, and I knew this for sure. 

It made me feel like chai tea, warming my heart from this cold world.

And free, 

Your love set me free and remind me to always be me,

To always know I have a friend that loves me unconditionally.

Words were said and neither of us knew how powerful they could resonate. Now I’m scared it’s now only me fighting for us to stay in love.

Afraid you may have left this ride without giving me the proper warning signs before we started. 

Alone in the dark questioning if I am still your beacon in the dark,

Afraid I may one day could lose a best friend I found in you.

It’s sickening my heart.

This December cold 

December cold brings on this aesthetic soul as crazy psyche behaviors caught in a web are traveling down unknown roads.A feeling of pain resonates here.
The chill factor is below zero matching my eye reaching soul windows.In dire need of a superhuman hero,

No one comes to save this day.So there is this bathroom mirror.

Acting by day and troubled by night,this December cold is going to rock me to sleep at night.

Not mentally feeling too well but my third eye still has its sight.The eerie feeling that I’m being put at bay until we reach new heights.

Searching for my soul to be fed, I find comfort in the food of thought.

Is this world really worth my energy? Do we all need love like we say we do? Is there really someone out there with the purest of hearts?

As I continuously feel this subconscious pain in my diaphragm as if it’s a board full of darts,I wonder if I’m carrying the worlds pain with me or just my own.

This December cold is one chilly one, living out my dreams out as if I finally won,yet the tears in my eyes feels like I lost a big one. 

Praying I get out this season alive for only this universe knows my truest intentions,therefore I should trust it will work its way out of me. 

Until then I must bear this cold on my own, this tragic lonely feeling of knowing I’m all by myself is a little frightening.

A room full of people and I look around and only see a distance.

My scarf securely fastened around my neck from frostbitten individuals, I try to discern what’s right. 

Shifting worlds

The world has shifted.Some turbulence was predicted,The spirit of it foreseen,The connection of our union, Something feels uneasy.
The bottomless pit of my stomach keeps falling, where did this gravity come from? I thought we was riding high on love, why the sudden stop?
Did someone else catch your eye? Are you having trouble with something? Is a low frequency showing its demotic side? Is there something I can do to bring us back?
Remember I don’t mind being your savior.
The grumbling of the soul, the consent notion of worthiness, and for the very first time, I am deafly afraid of an any kind of end.
Or am I making this all up?
Could it be perhaps you need solitude to get strong enough to hold both of our broken souls?
This love is a permanent stain, It’s to not be rubbed off. How can you leave before it began? How could you break it after you repaired it again?
Please the highest see this through, the world has shaken, this gravitational pull, and I’ll truly die living if I cannot be the woman to be in love with you. 

Love at masterful heights

I came across a feeling so captivatingI came across a love so pure,

The innocence of resistance,the guilty pleasure of you.

I came across a love so involved.
Communication levels high and the Creator protecting our words.

The essence of letting your guard down is seen in your infinite eyes.

I came across an emotion so engulfed. I believe in the space that is provided for us to be ourselves.

This miraculously new feeling I never felt before, The same feeling I knew I needed my whole life.

So beloved. 
So streamlined,

So beautiful,

So free.

I came across you and these points I made doesn’t encapsulate the path I have found.