Broken

The cause and effect.

Oh how did I forget to put the honey on the womb that was the atonement to your aliveness? Your spliced solace 

Combined like terms

And you get I.

With you it was a mistake gone right.

A cold case found 

A rebound

Rebooting the hard drive we thought it was the sound.

It was.

Our truths not told so it was heard in third parties,

Lowly is the man who has nobody.

Friends forever broken down,

passion ignited was the beginning of the end to a union that was suppose to last forever.

Our forever was momentarily infinite.

Parasites to the mental capacity to see beyond our way of thinking left us like this.

 Creative mind ceased,

Yet the memory keeps the juices flowing.

Finding love in a hopeless place put me in a position to be truly loved.

To know what it felt like.

Life ain’t so easy as they say 

And situations ain’t so stationary as envoys 

I was employed

To invite you to a branch of lighthearted comfort and familiarity.

You served as an editor of what Self worth meant to me,

I see the God in me,

All thanks to you.

Appreciation is an understatement 

I appreciate this current present.

To love and be loved so perfectly aligned 

I never could of dream of such sweetness.

The cause and effect. 

Going through the dark to see the light.

You made it all possible.

I thank you for your wisdom.

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:: hanging on your words

I see these endless possibilities,
yet I have dedicated my life to giving you unconditional second chances.

And I was confident in staying in my place because you have taught me well.

Your ambiguous love had no specific meaning.

Your common speech held common ground.

Unfortunately your commas between your common words never held any sound.

You’re desired to be my completed thought but you didn’t believe in punctuation.

So your sophistication was just infiltration.

And I’m still hanging on to every word you used for me.

perhaps I will drown in your sea

Let’s make believe your deceiving foibles were forgiven so we can live peaceably again.

My austere character has backbend into an extremist when I hear from you.

You have escaped my destructive path of hurting myself.

I wanted to feel your pain so badly, I’ve falter myself to be a like minded mini me version of yourself.

Because the end result is that I will always love you. I put my all in this deep ocean yet I came up for air.

I love you too…

I love you too…

Sighs.

I’m not sure why we say this word without any remorse.
You touched my heart.
Going to sleep is a nightmare because I know I won’t see you tomorrow.
I was played.
But the game taught me well.

I shall propel forward and leave this behind
Besides he’s not here to dry my eyes.
From the same eyes he made beautiful only for him.
And i loved it because I love me some him.

But I know I need to love me more.
I need to know I have a lot more to offer….
seek and I shall find
But this is all from the inspiration you have given me,
And I’m in love with you.

So I have to go find my more powerful self.
The more peaceful side.

Change will come where only you and me can hear our heart beat; while you have me on the kitchen counter understanding why I lie.

Trying to understand who I am.
Wanting to be in my world.

Sighs.

Your so different. You touched my soul.
I have to manage to act like this never happened?

Do I know what time it is?

Should I have known this was a fluke?

search I shall,
For the more powerful me.

The one you wanted to bring out of me but I was too hardheaded to know what was being blessed to me.
The hard truths of life we must arise to.

What I sufficed

What you misused is what I sufficed.
What I thought was true was a complete lie.
I tiptoed around your metaphors
And did a rain dance in your convincing cries.
Why God must I be such an advocate of love?
It’s not my ally.
It carries the heaviest weight.
But you mirrored it as light as a feather.
Ill do anything for you,
From being your personal hoe, to planting seeds
that needs to grow,
Yet you secretly wish I wasn’t so fast,
And I wish I wasn’t so slow.
So in essence, I became your muse.
Or so I thought.
I’m simply amusement to you.
So now it’s a selfish brawl,
In which we started walking before we crawled.
You use me to sharpen your saw,
& I’m left with the indignant features
Of a broken law.
My heart swells for you as yours deflate.
Yes this can be classified as ying and yang
but this is a state of belligerency
Like Chad and Sudan.
These thousand paper cranes illustrating my broken
heart flies in a distance of time where can’t relive.
Then I see you, the dove, flying free.
Same doves that’s used for funerals.