#real

When sisterhood are homes…

Dreaming of a home that was through a true friendship

A sisterhood

A safe place

Where you can be real with yourself,

To each other.

Judging each other character flaws

The ugly truths expose.

It’s cool because no one is perfect

And you know this friend wouldn’t dare use you in vain.

Their words are important to you

So you gently listen to them

Correcting them for the intent for them to grow

Never diminishing.

A true home where you know they are there walking beside you through it all.

A forgiving home.

A place where apologies is like the ocean.

Full of fluidity and energy behind our sorry’s,

Because we genuinely mean it and recognize when we have hurt each other.

A home where you are supported.

You are watered here like a flower because true love would never dare hurt you.

A friendship that’ll last not because you have common interest, but your soul recognize theirs.

Then I woke up.

I look around and I see selfish self intended love…

Friends who only hit you up when they need something,

Friends who can’t keep their word,

Friends who don’t support you when you need it the most,

Sisters who only care about their self.

I walk around and see friends that don’t talk for years and a honest conversation could mend their brokenness.

I saw greed that broke friendships apart realizing how money is truly the root that was dug up and a sisterhood bond turning brown ready to die.

I saw through space and time a beautiful home being broken apart because they have changed in a way where they don’t recognize each other any more…

I feel the loneliness and sorrow of friends being tore apart,

The ones you need you don’t have anymore.

They say it gets better with time, they say just forget about them,

But when you lose a friend that feels like home,

Nothing is a win.

Living on and trusting the universe it happened for a reason,

Hoping your days will get better.

For now the homelessness feels bitterness towards them,

How dare them you say.

The betrayal feels so real.

But the part we all forget is…

Did you see why they feel the way they do?

Did you receive a different perspective?

Did you let the water run dry when you could have led them to a river?

Was sorry too hard for you to say because you don’t like to realize your own wrongdoing?

Whether I was dreaming or whether I am awake nothing feels more painful than losing a home you thought was build on solid ground.

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The cause and effect.

Oh how did I forget to put the honey on the womb that was the atonement to your aliveness? Your spliced solace 

Combined like terms

And you get I.

With you it was a mistake gone right.

A cold case found 

A rebound

Rebooting the hard drive we thought it was the sound.

It was.

Our truths not told so it was heard in third parties,

Lowly is the man who has nobody.

Friends forever broken down,

passion ignited was the beginning of the end to a union that was suppose to last forever.

Our forever was momentarily infinite.

Parasites to the mental capacity to see beyond our way of thinking left us like this.

 Creative mind ceased,

Yet the memory keeps the juices flowing.

Finding love in a hopeless place put me in a position to be truly loved.

To know what it felt like.

Life ain’t so easy as they say 

And situations ain’t so stationary as envoys 

I was employed

To invite you to a branch of lighthearted comfort and familiarity.

You served as an editor of what Self worth meant to me,

I see the God in me,

All thanks to you.

Appreciation is an understatement 

I appreciate this current present.

To love and be loved so perfectly aligned 

I never could of dream of such sweetness.

The cause and effect. 

Going through the dark to see the light.

You made it all possible.

I thank you for your wisdom.

Love at masterful heights

I came across a feeling so captivatingI came across a love so pure,

The innocence of resistance,the guilty pleasure of you.

I came across a love so involved.
Communication levels high and the Creator protecting our words.

The essence of letting your guard down is seen in your infinite eyes.

I came across an emotion so engulfed. I believe in the space that is provided for us to be ourselves.

This miraculously new feeling I never felt before, The same feeling I knew I needed my whole life.

So beloved. 
So streamlined,

So beautiful,

So free.

I came across you and these points I made doesn’t encapsulate the path I have found.
  

My sexy love

My rockstar, my mold, my competition, that glue that keep us hold. He’s my persistence that keeps the show on the road.
My determination, the reason y I smile, the lack of hate is the reason behind why we get by. My joy, my pain, he is my up, I’m his down, his beauty is so different, yet so clear that makes me cry.
Not tears of sorrow, but tears of happiness, just being around his stress-free aura are the reasons why I feel I’m so blessed.
His beauty shines through all of the turmoil that life shows us, and it says, “baby-girl, we’ll make it through”. I love him, he loves me, knowing and feeling something so strong brings a spark of jealously. But we don’t worry about that, because our love is like that, no matter how close or how far, you’ll still be my star. I can’t wait to settle down with my angel above, the reason why life worth living, I call this beauty my sexy luv.

Love formation…

Love is this engulfed feeling that simply takes over your being..
Without permission.
Can’t breathe, sleep, need, nor want until I’m back to you.
The perfect submission.
There’s no ceiling with us because we know there’s a sky.
Yet there’s remission.
Clinging onto each other, please baby cling to me.

True humility is what your heart is comprised of.
I’m flying…
Surge straight to my soul, you know God is love…
Equivate timing.
There are no restrictions with my butterflies in my stomach.
Ur my enlightenment
This fear of mine has vanished. I want to go get lost.

See what I’m trying to say is that the ying and yang of our energy is too damn real.
Uninhibited.
I’ve never knew the sun could feel so good while the moon builds our foundation
Lets digest it.
Birds churping to our lovely cohesive bodies while its touched by the sweet taste of the wind.
Lets live it.

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3:32am thoughts

Everything is so qualitated that if you don’t keep up with the jones you’ll be diverged into being mandated. Foreign exchanges are sold for your ignorance thats being taken on the behalf of you fools. Forced into subordinate roles not knowing a blues clue.
step out of your comfort zone so u can realize the madness of fela kuti or Angela Davis. Roads can’t be seen if your running shoes ain’t prepared for marathon races. 
us folk taking on obstinated ideologies not leaving them room to grow. Guess we gotta blame the white man and forget about preachers word last sunday on what u reap is what u sow. We can keep that too on the low.
We throw out the idea of being impressionable for our own selfish reasons. Having our critical thinking minds dismantled by reality tv and retweets you didn’t find to pleasing. I have no room to talk we all guilty but do understand your sanity is worth self preserving. with that being said sky is for the limitless who believe in their whole self that’s willing to be a higher serving.
Nothing last forever but everything will be well deserving. 
Let’s be little solders of heron while grooving to Coltrane. Let’s manipulate the system for our grand moms in geriatric homes and that 10 day shutoff notice on the dresser stand. Grab my hand.