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When sisterhood are homes…

Dreaming of a home that was through a true friendship

A sisterhood

A safe place

Where you can be real with yourself,

To each other.

Judging each other character flaws

The ugly truths expose.

It’s cool because no one is perfect

And you know this friend wouldn’t dare use you in vain.

Their words are important to you

So you gently listen to them

Correcting them for the intent for them to grow

Never diminishing.

A true home where you know they are there walking beside you through it all.

A forgiving home.

A place where apologies is like the ocean.

Full of fluidity and energy behind our sorry’s,

Because we genuinely mean it and recognize when we have hurt each other.

A home where you are supported.

You are watered here like a flower because true love would never dare hurt you.

A friendship that’ll last not because you have common interest, but your soul recognize theirs.

Then I woke up.

I look around and I see selfish self intended love…

Friends who only hit you up when they need something,

Friends who can’t keep their word,

Friends who don’t support you when you need it the most,

Sisters who only care about their self.

I walk around and see friends that don’t talk for years and a honest conversation could mend their brokenness.

I saw greed that broke friendships apart realizing how money is truly the root that was dug up and a sisterhood bond turning brown ready to die.

I saw through space and time a beautiful home being broken apart because they have changed in a way where they don’t recognize each other any more…

I feel the loneliness and sorrow of friends being tore apart,

The ones you need you don’t have anymore.

They say it gets better with time, they say just forget about them,

But when you lose a friend that feels like home,

Nothing is a win.

Living on and trusting the universe it happened for a reason,

Hoping your days will get better.

For now the homelessness feels bitterness towards them,

How dare them you say.

The betrayal feels so real.

But the part we all forget is…

Did you see why they feel the way they do?

Did you receive a different perspective?

Did you let the water run dry when you could have led them to a river?

Was sorry too hard for you to say because you don’t like to realize your own wrongdoing?

Whether I was dreaming or whether I am awake nothing feels more painful than losing a home you thought was build on solid ground.

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The cause and effect.

Oh how did I forget to put the honey on the womb that was the atonement to your aliveness? Your spliced solace 

Combined like terms

And you get I.

With you it was a mistake gone right.

A cold case found 

A rebound

Rebooting the hard drive we thought it was the sound.

It was.

Our truths not told so it was heard in third parties,

Lowly is the man who has nobody.

Friends forever broken down,

passion ignited was the beginning of the end to a union that was suppose to last forever.

Our forever was momentarily infinite.

Parasites to the mental capacity to see beyond our way of thinking left us like this.

 Creative mind ceased,

Yet the memory keeps the juices flowing.

Finding love in a hopeless place put me in a position to be truly loved.

To know what it felt like.

Life ain’t so easy as they say 

And situations ain’t so stationary as envoys 

I was employed

To invite you to a branch of lighthearted comfort and familiarity.

You served as an editor of what Self worth meant to me,

I see the God in me,

All thanks to you.

Appreciation is an understatement 

I appreciate this current present.

To love and be loved so perfectly aligned 

I never could of dream of such sweetness.

The cause and effect. 

Going through the dark to see the light.

You made it all possible.

I thank you for your wisdom.

Shattered glass and broken ceilings 

Poured my heart out in Santa Fe in Tulum, Where I let my feelings out that I left at bay

I wrote poems my whole life about love 

And I was blessed to be granted with it and I have no idea what to say.
I played with something I knew I needed my whole life

As I let my sins wash away with the sand I tear up understanding his strife

There’s no excuse I just didn’t act right.

Right in his eyes.

I wonder if true forgiveness is allowed here

Or if we will ever get back to where we were.

Man I’m such a dumb one.

The only person that saw my stars.

And saw the brightest one and named it after me

I was too busy being selfish not realizing how love was suppose to be 

Nourishing, respecting, cherishing, everything you would want someone to do for you you do for them.

I shattered the glass.

I look out to this setting sun and I just hurt. 

The bones weary for knowing what would be the outcome of my mistakes.

Will I ever get this blessing again?

Will this only be my last time experiencing true love like this?

Or was this a training course to something in the future? 

I’m not sure.

I just wish I didn’t get to see the sand wash away my feet in this ocean.

Pulling away the tides but it still left these feelings.

Empty feelings knowing nothing I can now say and do will make a difference. 

Sun is set and know we are left with broken ceilings.

Love at masterful heights

I came across a feeling so captivatingI came across a love so pure,

The innocence of resistance,the guilty pleasure of you.

I came across a love so involved.
Communication levels high and the Creator protecting our words.

The essence of letting your guard down is seen in your infinite eyes.

I came across an emotion so engulfed. I believe in the space that is provided for us to be ourselves.

This miraculously new feeling I never felt before, The same feeling I knew I needed my whole life.

So beloved. 
So streamlined,

So beautiful,

So free.

I came across you and these points I made doesn’t encapsulate the path I have found.
  

Dim the Christmas lights

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Your beauty and all its allies can go ahead and break my heart if that is your intention or rather bad judgment call….but either way I’m gone.
Have long gone to live on Pluto but some say it’s no longer there so lemme try to actualize this.
Your Christmas lights brightens the innermost secrets I hold on for dear life. These same lights give my soul hands. As I hold your spirit as a present, you shimmy to my sha-shay. Ill twirl around our Christmas tree to have your lights simply watch me dance.
See, you take me to this universe that’s heavenly yet vile.
A little this and that.
My virtues are your very vices and just like that these same Christmas lights in your eyes are more serene but now became dim.
Yet and still your light in my life is beaming and inspiring the lost.
So now my newly fond disenchanted eyes are looking out of this window, trying to figure it all out.
…..or rather dying by each second…. rattling my mind as I fumble with a good enough excuse to justify why I would never leave you.
You’re hanging onto my very weakness and these Christmas lights are now my life’s melancholy.